What If Your Depression Is Trying To Speak To You?

As a culture, we don’t know how to be still. We tend to obey our inner urgency. We keep producing when we ought to let it be.  As a woman, I would rather make things happen than set down the weight of it all. As parents, we teach, lead and worry over our kids rather than hit our knees. As workers, we respond to our desire for more money by letting it dictate our schedules. And we are the most heavily medicated culture in the world. We’re medicated for listlessness,… Continue reading What If Your Depression Is Trying To Speak To You?

A Full Net

“But when the day was breaking, Jesus stood on the beach; yet the disciples did not know it was Jesus.  So Jesus said to them ‘Children, you do not have any fish do you?’ They answered Him ‘No.’ And He said to them, ‘Cast the net on the right side of the boat and you will find a catch.’  So they cast, and they were not able to haul it in because of the great number of fish.”          John 21:4-6 A group of exhausted men, out of answers and… Continue reading A Full Net

Trying to Pin the Tail on the Donkey

The other day I read a startling description by an author who I love.  She described the experience of being a little kid at a birthday party, blindfolded, and spun around, attempting to walk toward the wall to pin the tail on a donkey.  She said that when she is in seasons of stress or pain, the donkey on the wall feels like Jesus, and she’s trying to figure out where He is, stumbling toward Him, confused and disoriented.  This metaphor spoke to me, because I have lived it.  My… Continue reading Trying to Pin the Tail on the Donkey

Family Vacation

Nothing tends to surface our expectations more than time away with family.  It has been mind-blowing for me to learn that “vacationing” with a preschooler in tow is far from what it used to be.  As we neared the resort this past month, I rolled the windows down in my car, turned The Beach Boys up much too loud, and to the delight of my daughter, joined her in singing full blast.  I joined her wonder. I knew I had done nothing to earn the moment.  We were so beautiful,… Continue reading Family Vacation

Light in the Darkness

“Behold, the hour is coming, indeed it has come, when you will be scattered, each to his own home, and you will leave me alone. Yet I am not alone because the Father is with me. I have said these things to you that in Me, you might have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:32 “After this, many of His followers turned away and no longer walked with Him. And Jesus said to the twelve ‘Do you want… Continue reading Light in the Darkness

Owning

Sometimes pain becomes your friend. Doggedly faithful, it is always there to remind you of what you lost.  In the solitude that deep pain creates, you almost feel indebted. When you choose to move forward, even just a little step, it is as if you’re leaving someone important behind. If you don’t stand and bear witness to that old sadness, who else will? And what if you trip up, forgetting the lesson the pain gave you, let down your guard and crash to the ground? On the other hand, what… Continue reading Owning

Why the Cross Matters Now

  Robert was a second father to me; my best friend’s dad. A straight-laced, smart man, who was firm with us in a way that helps a child’s heart rest. His presence filled the need I had for structure, masculine strength, and something to lean against. I was a girl of eight, and my own dad was busy flying across the ocean to begin a new career and set up a new life for my mom, sister and me in England. I loved my best friend’s house. I’d lived near… Continue reading Why the Cross Matters Now

Grief and Movement

. “I can’t sleep. There’s too much weighing on my mind. But there’s a bird out there. Still singing in the dead of night. Like he knows there a season, when the sun is gonna set. But the story isn’t over yet…” Andy Gullahorn, 2012 Do you remember your first real heartache? The one that stole your breath and left you motionless? Life had been moving on a predictable plain. You knew what would come tomorrow, and the day after. And suddenly, you didn’t. Or maybe, that’s not how it… Continue reading Grief and Movement

Light on my Path

“Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.”  Psalm 119:105 I’m not usually a “resolver.” The fresh page of January does not inspire me to goal-setting; it mostly inspires me to hunker down in front of my fire and wait for the first signs of spring life. Maybe it’s a generation thing. Maybe it has more to do with my personality.  I listen to my internal world, to what “feels” true or what “feels” healthy. Resolutions seem too behavioral, like too much of a… Continue reading Light on my Path

Who Is Jesus?

  “6Is this not the fast that I choose: to loosen the bonds of wickedness, to undo the straps of the yoke, to let the oppressed go free? 7Is it not to share your bread with the hungry, and bring the homeless poor into your house; when you see the naked, to cover him, and not hide yourself from your own flesh…12You will be called the repairer of the breach, the restorer of streets in which to dwell.” Isaiah 58: 6-7; 12 “5He who was seated on the throne said,… Continue reading Who Is Jesus?